My second fave YSL bag.

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I'm so intoxicated with lust.
Note to self- Stop drooling already!!

Anyway,
just finished reunion dinner.
Just waiting for time to pass..
Wish there was someone playing MJ at home,
so at least I get the chance to learn.
Gotta wake up early tomorrow again,
then heading to grandpa's place,
followed by drinking session with Meiping?
Not confirmed yet,
but most probably.
Haven't met up with her in years and years!
Happy CNY~ *Loves*

*As I await with anticipation, I somehow wonder if this was all just a dream.

★☆ And damn it this feels too right, It's just like Déjà Vu ☆★

Quite lethargic now, bbq with relatives then amk. It's Sunday now already, CNY eve. Time really passes so damn fast. Something unpleasant happened during the bbq, and I wasn't surprised because it involved an irritating so called aunt of mine and another aunt. They didn't end up coming to blows, though they were close to. Hmm.. I was anticipating the outcome.. Total sadist huh?
Honestly, my thoughts keep wandering and I desperately need to get this damn burden off my chest but don't know how to. I wish to elaborate but I'm still not comfortable exposing my heartfelt thoughts here on my blog, and I never will be.
I desperately need a freaking break~
Have you ever had the feeling like life is moving in fast pace, forward motion; while everyone is just bustling around, you are left out and standing on the sidelines, and you can't even breathe? Well, that's how I feel now, and it's all your own damn fault. Well thanks for entering and complicating my life.

*When you're gone,

pieces of my heart are missing you.

All I'd ever wanted was for you to know,

that everything I do I'll put my heart and soul.

When you walk away,

I count the steps that you take.

When you're gone,

the face that I know is missing.

We were made for each other,

I miss you.

This few days have been hectic ones, and it's gonna get busier. Class on Thurs, went to Zara with Jovin after class.... All the nice clothes are sold out, what's left is those ugly plain or oversized ones.. Well, at least I've saved money~ Then bishan after that. Then Fri, class too. Had a freaking test on A&P, which I totally never studied for. Just when I thought it was a trivial test like the last one we did, my tutor decided to RECORD DOWN THE RESULT, TAKING DOWN ONE BY ONE IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS. Omg, I was so damn embarrased.. Luckily Jovin got the same result as me, 33%. Funny, though, we didn't copy each other's at all. Bet the whole class thinks we did. Then went out after class.. Planned to go out at night initially but in the end........... Can say that half my mood was gone~ Sorry Jovin, next time okay, promise. =)
Today, slept til late, then bbq with relatives at Aunt's condo in Jurong (hey, can go gym leh=]) after which I might be heading out again. Tomorrow is finally CNY eye, time really really flies! Reunion dinner with family, followed by going to relatives' houses on day 1 and 2 of CNY~
I might seem so composed now but I feel so confused. =(
Shall update again, ta-ta~

*I'm so so so sorry
I didn't mean to break your heart
I'm a heartbreaker,
a heartbreaker

No shopping for me again today, Ferlyn isn't free and I'm too lazy to ask the rest of my gfs. Hai. Just when I've decided on what to buy- a zara tee and a jumper. Nevermind, having class tomorrow, shall ask if Jovin wants to go with me after that? Or maybe I'll go later?
Been going out these few days, haven't done any studying. Notice I'm blogging twice a day.. Yes, I'm that bored... And been thinking a lot too, just letting my mind wander.
Sometimes I just can't get it. What do we get from all these? When we actually want this but do that, and make our own lives miserable. And then going in circles but never ending up at our destination. Should be asking myself actually...........................
I'm still searching for the answers, my mind is in a mess.
Forgive me, will you?
Or is that too much to ask of you?
That is why I'm letting you live your own life now, and I'm not getting in the way. Because to me, I can see a clear picture. Life without me will be better than you think.
It's not that I don't care, it's just that I want the best for you and I don't want you to suffer any more for my indecisiveness.
OF COURSE I STILL CARE. IT GOES WITHOUT SAYING.
Stupid, stupid me.

Ended up not going for my shopping yesterday, went out instead and then mac for supper.
Hai ya, still want to buy my Zara clothes lah..
Woke up disgustingly early today, 8plus in the morning because of my horrible cramps. So painful, I can't sleep.
Another empty day for me.. Feel like going shopping but I have a test tomorrow, gotta study lah. Boring with a capital B. Ahh... I know what to do now- online shopping! =p

*How I want to be part of your solitary life..

Ferlyn's still asleep lah, I'm craving for my shopping already lah.... I planned my Zara and Bebe therapy already.. All about tees encrusted with crystals at their wordings.. Then a coffee break at starbucks, dinner, then some wine. Hope she wakes up soon lah if not my plans are all ruined..
Speaking of which, gotta get my exercise gear soon! I want to get those really nice spandex short top and spandex shorts.. Maybe in hot pink? And shoes too.. Not the boring sporty type but real cute ones.. Gotta hit the gym! I'm determined because I want to achieve a killer bod- think toned legs, flat stomach, nice abs...... A body everyone would kill for.
Damn, so loving my life now. Full of good, clean fun and I have goals, things I look forward to achieving. I'm so loving challenges~ Wake up lah Ferlyn! =)

You're reading my blog, don't I know it.

Extracted from the meaning of my birthday:
''You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in life. Your Love, You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. Vise versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your expression. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel.''
Quite true!
Another boring Tuesday, class supposedly on Mon and Tues are all cancelled and will only commence on end of March, which means that I'll have lots of free time on my hands.. Well for the time being only anyway; will soon occupy myself with work.
Anyway, might be meeting up with Ferlyn later, still waiting for her to wake up and confirm with me. Need some retail therapy and a typical girls' day out.. I need the sunshine~ Zara is having sales too... =) Then maybe Mt Faber for wine?........

A very cloudy, quiet, Monday afternoon.
Meant to do my research,
but sitting here listening to the songs ''we belong together, breathless, bleeding love'' on repeat mode instead.
Can relate to their lyrics which are bursting with meanings..
Anyway, work yesterday at isetan scotts.
Alvin dropped by suddenly,
haven't seen him in a long while.
When I told him I'm attached,
his expression suddenly changed and he told me he had to leave.
Then sent me an sms saying that he was upset to hear that I'm attached.
I mean, what do you expect?
Gonna rest til wed, no work for me,
then class on Thursday~
Haven't met my gfs for a long time!
Gonna have some retail therapy soon.. I need it!
Need my gfs to gossip, to make me laugh.. =)
Sometimes, thinking back of those clean old fun,
really miss those times.
I used to be someone who always had to meet my gfs,
who always insisted that they accompany me everywhere I go,
who never seemed to be able to survive without the laughter they bring to me...
Now it's different.
Anyway, gonna call them up later.. I need to chill out~
Today's just gonna be a very lazy day for me,
as everyone is bustling about with their daily activities,
I sit here in a quiet corner, watching.
Life for me is changing slowly from color to black and white, to monotone.
It's just all about work, class, going out, staying home.
But I'm thankful,
that til this day I'm still living, breathing, having most of what I want.
I've learnt to appreciate things in life,
and I'm still learning.
Which reminds me, shit..
I forgot to go and register for my driving lesson.
Can't procrastinate anymore lah,
if not I'll be 50 years old when I finally get my car license.
Really looking forward to the day when I get my own car though I know the burden's gonna be heavy..

Looks like shooting stars?

Just woke up

Going home from work
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Went to sengkang, bugis, then city plaza today.
City plaza with the other Xinyi and Shirley..
Did hair extensions on whole head!
Color looks natural, but don't like the curl~ =(
Anyway, I'm really grateful for this happy day..
Thank you!~

Dear diary,
why is it that everyone is made out so differently?
why is it that there are no two people who are entirely identical?
why is it that only women get pregnant and not men?
why is it that some are rich, and some poor?
why is that that some are born beautiful, and some not?
why is it that the skies are so blue?
why is it that we take things, and people, for granted?
why is it that we have to love, and also hate?
why is it that we fall in love least unexpectedly?
why is it that we can do so much for the one we love?
why is it that when I miss someone, it aches so much sometimes, like a shadow casting over me, which can only remain untouched?

*All my life I've made excuses
Pushing you away,
saying that you're not for me
All my life I've ran from you,
I tried everything
In the end it was you
In the end, in the end it was you

Woke up to a beautiful lazy saturday morning,but now feeling slightly annoyed.Sometimes I don't like this part of myself; I get annoyed easily, and my irritation shows on my face and actions; I'm not someone to hide my irritation. I get irritated at the very slightest things like someone chewing food loudly.. I simply cannot stand that and no matter how hungry I am, I would rather eat after you than at the same table as you if you happen to be like this. Ladies and gentlemen, if you've ever wondered why I don't eat when I'm with you, that's the reason. But it seldom happens because I choose the people I go out with. I won't ever just go out with any tom, dick or harry. I choose the people I make friends with. I choose the people whom I return calls or reply smses to. I choose the people who can call my name and I respond. I choose the people I make my friend. I choose the people I love. Simple. I'm always the one in control of my life.

Went to watch a midnight movie yesterday, it was a nice movie, but I felt damn tired because I woke up early yesterday... No more midnight movies for me.. I realise that compared to the past, I feel fatigued so much easily now. Hmm.. Ageing process? Anyway, that reminds me, gotta revise my work. Gonna have a test this week on bones, their medical names, locations and functions. Whoever meets me these few days will be pitiful enough to have to hear me describe the bones of our body; easier to remember this way lah.

Sunny, windy, lazy saturday afternoon.. time to make plans for later~ By the way, there seems to be some problem with the clock on my laptop, it always shows one day before the actual day..

It's been such a hectic week for me...

Mon- missed the orientation for my additional cidesco class.
Tues- went for class supposedly, only to realize that it will only commence on end of april.
Wed- work.
Thurs- class, jurong point with jovin after that. jurong point is damn big, i spent almost 2 hours just walking half of B1 ! ate damn much too.
Fri- class.

busy, busy, busy me.
well,i like it this way anyway; gives me a sense of satistfaction and achievement.
finally, starting to wake up (!) and pay attention in class already. i cold explain the whole diagram of the lymphatic system to jovin today! *claps* feeling so proud of myself~ yeah..keep it up =)
well anyway, i'm gonna start this year with new new resolutions. here's the new and improved list :
1) get at least half of my car license
2) study, revise, try my best
3) be healthy- start exercising/take up pilates/belly dancing/exercise with hula hoops (and trim my waist-kill 2 birds with 1 stone lah)
4) excel in work
5) work out my future career plans (after graduation)
6) save $$ to buy a car and succeeding so~ i cannot fail to do so, that's one of my dream!
7) be less selfish
8) appreciate the fine things in life and don't take things or people for granted.. this applies mainly to my family and loved ones~

that's all for now, ta-ta !

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Don't look behind...
there are memories of lost love,
there are hearts that lie broken,
things left undone,
words left unspoken.

Don't look behind...
there are tears waiting to fall,
there`s pain nobody can take,
there are memories waiting to hurt you-
your heart`s gonna break.

Don't look behind...
you`re never going to return,
whatever you`re looking for... is gone,
you`re gonna feel so torn and sad,
you`re going to feel alone.

Don't look behind...
there are friends going away,
innocent eyes filled with tears,
because of memories you`ll never forget,
built up inside through the years.

Don't look behind...
the hand you want to hold is slipping away,
your feet are too weak to hold you,
you`re gonna try to be on your own,
there`s nothing much you can do.

Don't look behind...

Supposed to go for class today, starting from this week class will be commencing for 4 days a week instead of 2 but I missed the very first day of my cidesco lesson. Actually pulled my tired self up already, bathed already, drank my coffee already, then jovin sent a msg saying that she isn't going so I chose not to also. Well, principal talk only, we've heard enough of those. But I don't like it like this... One moment go, one moment not, I'm dependent on her lah. Because this course is a really advanced one and I can't afford to fail... I don't have the time and it's costly too. Well, whatever.

I'm damn damn tired. Yesterday was the last day of promo at taka, it was quite a hectic day and my feet were aching. In Lancome, there is no such thing as sitting. Noooooo... You stand and stand, the staff are all quite used to it anyway. I really really feel like going back to sleep now but hell, I can't! You know how is it when you feel so tired but can't sleep.. Very damn frustrating!

I was surprised when Sindy told me the day before that she had heard some rumours about me gossipping about her.. And from what I heard, those rumours were quite bad too. Of course I didn't ! She's my very good friend and I love her so much =) Though I felt that it's quite stupid, I could understand why she feels so angry and upset, initially with me, but now with the person who started this rumour.. Whom we have yet to know but she's checking up on. She then said that she trusts me completely, she believed someone was jealous and maybe trying to sour our relationship because we are very, very, close and lots of people know it. Well, whatever. I told her it's okay, just let that person say whatever she wants, you know how i treat you but make sure that person does a clean job, don't ever let me find out who. I know that demented imbecile is just simply jealous.

My not going to class may actually be a blessing in disguise, it's my off day! Won't have an off day for 2 weeks though. I'm not in need of cash but it's just that I agreed to work 4 days and my class schedule has suddenly changed to 4 days instead of 2 so I'll still work 3 days... Which very simply translates into no off day. But it's okay lah really, work is a joy to me. I'm growing to adapt to my job, but one thing I feel is that the full-timers are sometimes so on par with each other that the part-timers feel left out. And I hate it that part-timers have no uniform. Sometimes, I think about the possibilities of joining another brand, maybe something like innuovi? =)

Now time for next decision, to order mac breakfast or not?........

*A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance,
but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.

Feeling quite happy now, basically it has just been a great day.Everything went more than smoothly for me at work, it went well til I was more than willing to extend my working hours which, thankfully, wasn't required because I'd have died of exhaustion now. Well, I'm still tired, which means that I'll have to keep this entry short and sweet. Made a new friend today too, she's so sweet~
Well, work for me tomorrow again, noon shift... Which means that I can sleep later tonight. Eric will be celebrating his birthday tonight at DF and kept persuading me to go but NO. I'm a little sick of clubbing already and besides, I'm exhausted enough. =(
Movie ''Red Cliff'' is showing now................................................... Special, special me~
*If only, a final fantasy; silly silly me.

My side view.. Look at those cheeks accumulated from my endless late night suppers.

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